Over the past few years I've struggled with the many reasons I've gained so much weight and why it is so difficult to lose it. I just started reading In Defense of Food, by Michael Pollan, and it is hitting home in so many ways. I feel like I've been under this cloud of self-scrutiny for so long and have beaten myself up for gaining so much weight. Ultimately, I have the power to change. But, I will not allow for myself to feel bad that I am pulled toward sweets, soda, and fast food, when really, that is what our society pushes like crack.
Instead, I'm going to realize that I have the power to review my choices and acknowledge that the Food Administration, all of the food manufacturers, and even the media and medical community, have agendas and goals to meet. I have the power to change my way of thinking, and hence, my way of eating. If I can simply look at this as a process, maybe even have some fun along the way, I'm sure I will reach my goals. So, in deference to all things humorous, here is my top ten list on why I havent' been able to lose the weight thus far:
10. I refuse to listen to the advice of my wonderful personal trainer. I refer to this as disrespecting my authority figures. I was WAY too obedient as a child.
9. I love bean & cheese burritos. I mean I REALLY love them and need them, more than periodically. In fact, daily wouldn't be too often. Are you catching "wind" of this? Ha.
8. When I was thinner (around 15 years ago), I wore a "A" cup size. Now I don't. Regressing back to an A cup seems painful, not to mention counter-intuitive.
7. My metabolism has never received a job description, a proper education and training in respect to its job description, regular reviews, but PLENTY of vacation time.
6. My thighs are very close friends. They like to be close and mingle. And, they definitely refuse to grow distant.
5. I have very little tolerance for sweat.
4. I'm bringing sexy back.
3. I have never been able to understand calorie counting. I can't even balance my checkbook. Why on earth would I track my calories? Is some calorie-counting IRS agent going to do an audit on my "food journal" anytime soon?
2. I don't know how to eat a singe serving of anything. I mean, two fig newtons? ONE CUP of ice cream? Do you know how very little space that would take in my zephyr of a stomach? Arghhhh.
1. I fear that if I lost weight I might just be TOO ravishing. :-)
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hmmm funny thoughts, but the last one made me think a lot about what it means. good stuff, and a willingness to ask yourself hard questions... I think you are awesome and doing a great job of fighting your battles. Keep up the good work!
ReplyDeleteWell it just so happens that your number 9 will always be my number 1. Its like the food version of crack.
ReplyDeleteI think I'm going to look for that book. With all of the reasons I have to follow your lead, I can't seem to do it either. Portion size, not enjoying being out of breath, and the loveliness of junk food are my strong foes. Keep fighting the good fight!
ReplyDeleteoh my god, I can totally relate to all of these reasons! After years of fertility drugs and finally two beautiful babies I gained more weight then I would like. I keep trying to lose it but it just doesn't seem to want to come off so I have decided to try to just accept my body the way it is and be happy. You are ravishing the way you are so don't beat yourself up for not looking anorexic.
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